Mounds Bars.

You know what I like? Mounds bars. I'd never even had a mounds bar until two days ago on Halloween night. But it was goo-ood. That makes me happy.

You know what I don't like? Commitment problems. Those don't make me happy. There's a couple of people that I know who have had some major commitment problems this year. It's frustrating. There are these two girls that I've known since my freshman year. We've always been close friends. They've never been the most reliable people, but it's never been so bad that you had to pay attention to it. This year, though, it's just been a mess. We make plans to hang out and they drop them last minute. They pretty much quit on their sports team - stop going to practices and give the coach "the hand" as he tries to talk with them - just quit caring in general. Their other friends just can't spend any time with them. Apparently, they don't have a moment to spare. They've made plenty of excuses: homework, college applications, too tired... the works. But honestly, it doesn't make what they do any better. Not for all of their friends. I heard about how their respective sports teams crumbled when they stopped showing up and caring. I've seen and felt how it is when they drop out on plans last minute. It hurts, seeing their relationships falling apart. And why? "I don't even care about that game... if I don't get my college apps done I can't go to the college and say, 'sorry I didn't get my app done... but we won the game!'" And the other, "Oh, sorry, I'm doing homework. I have an essay to write." Haven't you had that essay for two weeks? "Yeah, but I haven't started it yet and it's due tomorrow." Okay, I see. So you tell me that you can do something, then I head up somewhere to meet you, call you when you're late, and hear you tell me "oh, I decided not to go." Of course you did. Of course.
Personally, I don't understand how you can do that to someone. I'm on a sports team. I have hard classes. I have college applications to do. But I'm not the one backing out of my team. I'm not the one leaving my friends empty handed. None of my other friends are doing that either. It's just them. And I can't understand it. I love my cross country team so much. Just the thought of being someone high level on the team and then just quitting makes me feel guilty. I could never let myself hurt all of the girls on the team by leaving them like that. The same goes for my friends. When I make plans with my friends, I don't break them unless I absolutely have to. It hurts when you look forward to something and then just can't do it, and I know that. I would never want to hurt my friends in that way. But these couple of girls just don't seem to be bothered by what they're doing. They don't think they're doing anything wrong. And that might be what hurts most of all.
I was hoping that by writing this out I would be able to untangle why they might be doing what they're doing. However, I'm not seeing anything. What I'm seeing is more reasons for me to be disappointed in what these girls have turned themselves into. I hope that one day they see that what they are doing to those around them is hurtful and wrong. Until then, I just need to do my best to let it go.